My personal diary
7/31/2026
So today was my first day at work ever, like... ever. I was really scared at first because i didn't want to talk to people i don't know... i was scared of messing up i guess. But all went well it was 8 hours of my life and i was outside in the heat i swear i almost died. But my knee hurts really bad and i have to go back tomorrow. Ughhhh!!! Atleast i'm making money right...
OMGG school starts in 3 days and i'm abt to be a junior in high school i swear just yesterday i was 12 its crazy how fast it goes by.
But yea that's life, it is 12am though and i should get some sleep.
GOODNIGHT.
-xoxo
Lenni
08/01/2026
You know when you have those days, weeks, months, or years of just sadness not even sadness just like numbness... i mean i still feel things i just think the sadness that I've felt for so long just becomes normal making it numbness. Even when I'm doing good even when i truly don't have a reason to be sad its still there it never goes away. Its such an exhausting feeling, and when you are happy and everything in life is good it just makes you feel even shittier for feeling that way and even worse is when you constantly think something is gonna go wrong like you don't deserve this happiness. That's basically how i feel all the time unless i'm super distracted and even then sometimes it over powers i don't know i was just thinking about it.
Peace out!
-xoxo
Lenni
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